We're lucky enough to travel with Mark when he goes out of town for work, especially in Southern CA. We did not get to visit with as many family and friends or sightsee as much as we would have liked to, but partly it was due to "Carmageddon" (non event really when it actually was supposed to occur!) and partly because we are just enjoying our "downtime" and Mommy has been going through a self reflective phase of learning to be at peace with our lifestyle.
By that, I mean I have been working on:
a) not sweating the small stuff (It's ok to have the kids have full use of our house and visitors don't need to think we have an immaculate home ALL the time..or ever?), b) reading more and getting back to doing things that makes me enjoy my "Job"... having the freedom to do random stuff (Crosswords, listening to music) during the day, and c) choosing to "opt out" when I feel obligated to commit to everything we are invited to or packing our weekends with 100001 things just because we have to put our days to FULL use with Daddy...
I want my home to look like the next Pottery Barn catalog will be shooting here! I want my kids to have the drive other kids supposedly have being in 2-3 sports/activities all the time! I want to document each and every minute of our lives to pass on to the kids and whoever else is interested! I want to be the model Mommy walking out of the house made up, dressed up, and just UP! Alas... reality hits... It takes a lot of work and well, "compelling tendencies" to keep up the Ideal life!
My Real life is: My home will never make the PB catalogs because I am lazy, would rather spend my money on other stuff, and not obsessive enough to maintain it all! My kids enjoy playing at home, having the space to run around, and doing activities they want vs what I think they should be doing because others are doing it. I can't document everything in life, otherwise life passes by on a memory card and the memory others have will be of me constantly posing them to capture "that" moment. And lastly...I choose to sleep an extra 15 minutes instead of getting up to put on makeup, I wear clothes that are machine washable so it's OK if the kids get hurt, I can hug them without worrying about tear stains on my dry clean only outfit, and being at peace means a healthier, happier and calmer Wife, Mommy, and person.
But the biggest lesson I am trying to teach myself: slow down and ENJOY LIFE!
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